Pain is weird. It’s terrible to experience, especially when the pain is extreme. I have had my fair share of pain, but none of it felt like the pain I experienced on October 14, 2024. It came on me slowly, growing steadily until I could ignore it no longer. I had gotten pretty good at […]
This was my second surgery in one month. It was smaller than the first one, most are, so it surprised me with how traumatic it was. The main reason I got a port was to minimize the amount of times I was going to have to be poked by a needle. The port allows the
I loved the idea of doing something out of the ordinary with my hair before it all fell out because of chemo, I just loved it. It felt like a “fuck you” to the treatments that were going to save my life but in the process of saving me make me sicker than I’ve ever
I’ve been struggling to put words to what it was like the days after my surgery. I find that I’m struggling to put all of this to words because I have to look some trauma in the eye. I’ve been giving myself grace and writing about this experience, telling this story, when my body has
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I met Rebecca when I was an awkward, insecure, 22 year old newly wed working at a day spa. Rebecca was a patron of the day spa and scheduled a 1 hour massage once a week. I remember the first time I saw her, she was exiting the spa area where she received her massage
I know there should be more sophisticated things that fill my cup, but nothing hits like THC and Bluey, This works in my favor because Josephine has been needing to watch Bluey episodes (it’s her comfort show) to help her fall asleep recently and she’s been sleeping on the couch in my room for months.
I don’t want to write about this. I don’t want to look this straight in the face and really feel into what was happening inside of me before I got wheeled into the OR to have my bilateral mastectomy. It’s a bummer really. I thought I’d be brave enough to write about this. I am
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