I know there should be more sophisticated things that fill my cup, but nothing hits like THC and Bluey, This works in my favor because Josephine has been needing to watch Bluey episodes (it’s her comfort show) to help her fall asleep recently and she’s been sleeping on the couch in my room for months. […]
I don’t want to write about this. I don’t want to look this straight in the face and really feel into what was happening inside of me before I got wheeled into the OR to have my bilateral mastectomy. It’s a bummer really. I thought I’d be brave enough to write about this. I am
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I never really thought about how much needs to be done prior to things like surgery, especially surgeries that require a lot of recovery time. The surgery was just the beginning of the whole terrible process. So I focused on doing things that were in my control. One of my most time consuming responsibilities is
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All of the big decisions had been made. I was going to have a bilateral mastectomy and immediately have reconstructive surgery. I’d only have to go under anesthesia once, so essentially we were killing two birds with one stone (Is that even a saying anymore?). After you’ve made all the choices, you then have to
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This was the boys first day of preschool and I remember trying really hard to be present despite being so distracted by all the cancer things going on. I got my diagnosis on the first day of school for the girls and that day is a blur. I missed moments that I wanted to remember
Chris and I had one last date before all the cancer treatments were going to begin. God, we needed it. We’re parents of four children so there is always someone interrupting. We hadn’t been able to just talk and get our thoughts out in what felt like forever. I was also craving time to just
I had to get ready. The 4 weeks leading up to my surgery were a blur of deep deep sadness and a rigid need to prepare. There were things I really wanted to get done before I started the whole cancer treatment process. This is pretty self explanatory but my house needed one of those
I’ve had to deliver news a time or two in my life. I’ve had to deliver happy, weird, devastating, and really everything in-between kind of news. But I’d never delivered the news that I had cancer, this piece of news had never been my news. How would I deliver that news? Is it something I
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You know how there are events in your life that you use to gauge different seasons? Usually they are big events like having a child, buying a house, getting married, a death, or a diagnosis. You know, like milestones that can be happy or sad. Breast Cancer is the first milestone I have entered into
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August 17th, 2024 I’m not going to lie, one of the very first things I thought of after I got my breast cancer diagnosis was the reality that I was going to lose my hair. I knew that there were some variations of chemo that didn’t cause hair loss, but it wasn’t likely that I
